...and she still says im a fool,ya!

Well,there I was,searching for my Pandoras Box which had driven so much into curiosity that I was even prepared to quit my job and start exploring the Straits of Gibraltar.But then imagination took over me.And thats when I completely lost it.The way the cookie crumbled,vegetation on the Alps, aliens using nano-technology to invade earth - I saw it all. They say " The human brain is the child of imagination".I disagreed.Imagination is our own world.Our own Moo- Custard-space.We mould it,shred it,crush it and ultimately puzzle it down to some obscure form or the other.It is probably one of God's usual bad jokes just to cover up the perfectionism of the human brain.
Whatever!
Ever since I barely managed to reach the mid of my college life,my mind had taken an absolutely different turn.Rationalism gave way to idealism,dreams conquered practicality.I dunno if it was the excess booze or the hilly dope , but it did add on.Like the times when u feel the oceanic waves inside your head hit you so hard that it knocks you out.The few months after college introduced me to an entirely wierd bunch of people who drastically influenced my thinking on life.Well,in our world,I realized,I was special but in an abnormal way.Sraanda Shu had once told me "Whats the point of living and dreaming, when you can't solve your maths"
Yes,The maths was tough.I needed a job,some money to live without my parent's cash (of course) and some kind of reconcilliation.I got both the formers,but the latter...I kinda let it go. Never came back. It was regrettable,but inevitable,wasn't it?
A year later,2007.When the wolrd prepares to counter terrorism,global warming,conflict diamonds,religious issues,Columbian drugs,Cuban cigars and asteroids striking earth in a decade, you know what I say. And I say "phuck eet!".Insensitive,heartless,selfish,fuckless sucker,am I,ya?
Well,yes,I have lost it. And I have no clue what to do about it.

Arrey rukh jaa re Bandeh!

BLACK FRIDAY

Well..... The movie, it certainly shook me up a bit and definitely impressed me.But i wasnt moved.
The boldness of the film-maker to include the real-names of those behind the Bombay blasts and the potrayal of some of the scenes in the movie were really impressive.

But...its too long.....its too documentary-ish.....and some irrelavant scenes.But a good and shocking watch nevertheless.

Is it,ya??

Well,probably the only place in Pune i really liked was the Osho Ashraam...Really nice and serene...ohh and the hot firangs....heehee....There's sooo much to rite about my life now....but the space.....u know what i say.." fuck it"....... and i watched "you've got mail" again ..... all i can say is " heehee" ... it does bring back some wierd memories,ya.... :-) ....

And Dada too good khelche..... am proud...really!!!


Ohh...and please read this .... I love the insignificant moo talk like this .......

"This is excellent…read it throughout … The following is supposedly an actual question given on a University of Washington mid-term chemistry exam. The answer by one student to the bonus question was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume
that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different Religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions, and
since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially.
Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added. This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you," and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this
theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct... leaving only Heaven and thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting, "Oh my God."

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A" "

Har Har!!!!! I loooooooooooooooowed the last part!!!!

Light a Candle !

Spread the word (even if u think it doesnt help )


http://lightamillioncandles.com/


Watch the Ad!

Love Confessions!

ok,Cupid,u son of a bitch....u cant screw up my life like the way u've been doing since i was in nursery!!!... I wont be a sucker and drink up the love-philtre ... but i will think about it ....

I know its nice to give my heart out to someone...... but sometimes it feels much better this way,i guess!!!!

Im reading Salman Rushdie's Fury now..... some way to spend the Lover's day,huh!!?? and just dying to eat the chicken bucket at Roy's place!!!!!!...

The Giggle-loop and God's Cannibus!!!!!

Okk,What if ..... the great one did smoke up like the way we do...sitting stuffing the dope into the bong or just passing around the joint ....sitting with us,in a circle,cleaning up the weed ... as if we are having one of those-l'il-round-table-conferances with the Almighty ... talking about those smoke-pot time serious issues like Global Warming or even the Brad-Angie hook up!!!
But thats like ...'what if..."...

1) Nations would have Pink Floyd or DreamTheatre numbers as their anthems....like Comfortably Numb for Finland or whaatveaaa .....

2)Smoke-Pollution would be so much more meaningful .....

3)People wud just breathe and get high....no need to roll up joints .... no need to remove the
seeds ... and stems ..... or take the trouble of lighting it up ... and just like shouting out
"Geronimoooo, .... "
and u breathe in mary-jane ...

4)Forests would be much green ... lush ... (okk,a bit dry too) and importantly resourceful!!!

5) Painkillers like Asprins would face fierce .... probably Real fierce competition from weed med
tablets .....

6)The third world african countries might just rule the world ......

7)More importantly,LEgalized marijuana .... A perfect reunioun with the heaven and the earth ...... God and mankind .... the herbal holy drug and brain .....!!!!

God,dude,join the crowd!!!Amen!



and for the humans.....Man made booze....God made Weed....now who do U trust..!!!?

The giggle-loop is so true....The glasses stacked on top-o-each other....the supressed
giggle...looping up into the shaking beer mug tower....and then crashing onto the
ground.....eventually ending up in the laughter-slaughter incident.....Chaos Theory,is it??...

(refer to the British Comedy series, Coupling:season1,episode 3 for the Giggle-loop!!! and watch the movie "ButterFly Effect for "chaos Theory" ..... others can just turn on Star Tv and watch those hindi soaps starting with "Kkkkk.... ")


This peice of news......lol <----Gross!!!!
Ohhh....and i wanna go to the Roger Waters concert....but sigh!!!.............

Whats wrong with......??????

The Big Mac is the greatest . Sandy and my trip to the MacD’s…heehee…that’s what we called it.
One Maharaja burger, four Chicken McGrill Burgers,one fillet-o-fish, one chicken Mexican wrap,2 large cokes, and two Large Fries. People looked as if we were refugees from Somalia.And we weren’t even on weed. I felt like Jughead!!! Ya,felt good.Real good!

I wonder why girls smell so good.They are like nice-smelling mermaids in Sahara. Road,office,neighborhood…doesn’t matter…..i feel like just holding them..and smelling the fragnance outta them all day long.( and esp if she’s one of those silky-long-haired ones… :-P)…that particular whiff of air is like the most sweetest smell ever on earth.Nothing comes close to it…. Roses,dandelions,orchids …blah blah….Nothing!

And ill freak out…if I get one more mail about some guy-having-pancreas-cancer or about some-raped-girl in Bloohoo-land…..and im asked to forward it …supposedly for Help or whatevaaaa!....cuz if u still don’t get it……refer to the oxford dictionary….find the most used four-letter starting with F…and add an ‘off’ to it. I guess u r still dumb if u have no idea what im talking about.

just the ol' frigging blues!!!

Okk,I know whats going wrong. I think I do. But how does it help. Doesn’t help anymore. No one gives a shit. No one. Im really dreamy nowadays . And she came in my dreams yet again. But how does it help. Doesnt help anymore.
I bet u aint understanding a thing im saying.
Trust me,someday,when u start dreaming….u will too.

zzzZZZZzzzz......!!!! (shh..im actually awake !)

“You sleeptalk???....you even sleepwalk???!!!..God!..u r a freak!!!!......”

Okk, I do both….walk very rarely…but I do it….and talk…almost everyday!!!!...Well….i really dunno what I talk about. But I do. And im not really concerned about it ..

“its considered to be a sickness..u better do something about it”

ooooo……im ‘scaaaaared’…and im sooo affected and im soo gonna die or something..Bullshit!).
Ohh…I love watching dreams.I think that’s what makes me sleeptalk more…and its not that bad…at least ….its not as gross as people who drool in their sleep….at least im capable of having a normal conversation even in my sleep,unlike other certain nonsense people….at least im more interesting than most people!!!...hahahaha!!!..i live my life through dreams…and I loooooooooowe it!!!!

Okk, miss ..u win! Ive been a dumbfuck…but I don’t wanna lose u….i really like ya… can I have one last chance…just one???? I promise I wont fuck up….. Pweeeeze!!! : -)

And Miss Ab. ….fuck u,seriously!!.. you aint my friend anymore…..ive never felt like this about anyone…the way u have avoided the issue,where I should not be even involved( but ka-ching! I am) ..i feel u are just another high class wannabe bitch!!!...now please don’t ask me why..!!!!!

And Syriana is too slow a movie …..!

TIA......This is Africa!!!!!!!!!!

BLOOD DIAMOND

Ok…whew!....just watched Blood Diamond… Its really been a long time…I watched a movie as nicely scripted as this one.Li Cap was at his usual best again. Watched it.Loved it. Really really touching. And makes u keep wondering.Awesome again!

Im coming back to the stars......!!!

Im weirdly happy nowadays. Like just sitting on the office couch,doing nothing.Or drinking beer and smoking pot on my terrace all alone and looking at the stars and imagining stuffs. But still im suddenly missing so much. College, home, school, Calcutta, Park Street, Salt lake FD park, my broken computer chair et al.Is this what they call a change for the better. I went to a Binesh’s sister’s wedding reception last day. The food was good, the booze was good.Somewhere I saw in some Travel Channel that in a wedding,if the food is good,everything’s good. I think im growing thin again.I wanna grow fat. Somehow fat people are more cooler.And I wanna eat too.


I generally don’t read forwarded mails. And I don’t even know why I found this interesting.

Equality of Poverty:

The ant works hard in the withering heat all summer long, building his house and laying up supplies for the winter. The grasshopper thinks the ant's a fool and laughs & dances & plays the summer away. Come winter, the shivering grasshopper calls a press conference and demands to know why the ant should be allowed to be warm and well fed while others are cold and starving.NDTV, BBC, CNN show up to provide pictures of the shivering grasshopper next to a video of the ant in his comfortable home with a table filled with food. The World is stunned by the sharp contrast. How can this be that this poor grasshopper is allowed to suffer so?Arundhati Roy stages a demonstration in front of the ant's house.Medha Patkar goes on a fast along with other grasshoppers demanding that grasshoppers be relocated to warmer climates during winter.Amnesty International and Koffi Annan criticize the Indian Government for not upholding the fundamental rights of the grasshopper.
The Internet is flooded with online petitions seeking support to the grasshopper (many promising Heaven and Everlasting Peace for prompt support as against the wrath of God for non-compliance).
Opposition MP's stage a walkout.
Left parties and Mamata Banerjee call for "Bharat Bandh" in West Bengal and demanding a Judicial Enquiry.
CPM in Kerala immediately passes a law preventing Ants from working hard in the heat so as to bring about “Equality of Poverty” among ants and grasshoppers.Lalu Prasad allocates one free coach to Grasshoppers on all Indian Railway Trains, aptly named as the 'Grasshopper Rath'.Finally, the Judicial Committee drafts the “Prevention of Terrorism Against Grasshoppers Act [POTAGA]", with effect from the beginning of the winter.Arjun Singh makes Special Reservation for Grass Hopper in educational Institutions & in Govt Services.The ant is fined for failing to comply with POTAGA and, having nothing left to pay his retroactive taxes, his home is confiscated by the Government and handed over to the grasshopper in a ceremony covered by NDTV.Arundhati Roy calls it "a triumph of justice". Lalu calls it 'Socialistic Justice'. CPM calls it the 'revolutionary resurgence of the downtrodden' Koffi Annan invites the grasshopper to address the UN General Assembly.Many years later...
The ant has since migrated to the US and set up a multi billion dollar company in Silicon Valley .
100s of grasshoppers still die of starvation despite reservation somewhere in India ..
And Indian politicians still complain of brain drain.”

The corporates and me.....i hate it!!!!

Im soooooo fake!!!!

The batch......aaahhh!!!...

random and bored!

I watched Sin City.It was psychotic and weird.The bad ass crime world.Sheeeesh!

Yesterday got pretty nicely stoned and played a card game called ANO.’twas stupid but fun.

Somewhere I had heard that the worst way to miss someone was to know that u can never ever see that person anymore.Im kinda having that feeling.But I know im stoic enough to drown in it an alcohol peg.No more tears.So remember if u ever smell a Dundee cake…make sure its Christmas or else something’s gravely wrong.
Ohhh and Im bored!

Im losing interest in everything ....way too fast.Nothing interests me nowadays,not even money i think.Otherwise i wud have started gambling or something.But whatever,nothing interests me.Im suffering from this 2-minute disinterest syndrome,where im like all ecstatic about a particular thing for about 2 minutes and then it all fades out.I dunno who to blame,but i think ive been having this sickness from my childhood.Like i started with drawing and painting...gave a couple of Part I and II drawing exams and then i stopped it abruptly.And then piano and synthesizer...that lasted for about 3-4 years i think.And then cricket.Table tennis.Poetry..cork collecting... music(yet again)...Killing gross-looking bugs...TV...radio...computers...glass painting...sigh sigh sigh ablah blah blah and sigh sigh sigh and double sigh-s!!!!!...
And i hate it when they question me about my hobbies and interests in interviews...cuz i look like a blank mindfucked assclown then.And then they still say that the world is round...but people like me still fail to beleive that!!!!...
I sooooo wanna travel badly and see the world, before the 2-minute syndrome attacks me again.sigh!

sigh!

its been a week.....and it aint feeling better.Im mindfucked.Im jobless.Im like a blot ..and a tiny one too....!.....this sucks....really sucks!!!!!........i miss evreything ive done in my past 22 years.Everything!...someday i know ill make a movie about my life..and then go backpacking all over the world.I know.i know!

its that time of the year again when i dunno what to feel.

ok,i dunno if it sucks to leave or not.Cuz i aint feeling anything.,..happy or sad!...calcutta trips are always fun....but this time.....it was kinda boring....everyone was busy....ritu'r shaathe lunch..and then spending time with rishi....felt good.....no more much of orkut scrapping....or mailing...or blogging( which doesnt matter cuz no one reads them..hyuk-hyuk)...and hopefully i get ritu's snail mails.......sigh! pune....

but the void's still there!

Ah! the last day.....

Its 'THE' 31st night....and what!...im supposed to party and drink till i drop or something....dance with babes with lotsa meat...take some acid....have a glass of champagne,just for the sake of it....get high on life and (ill)legal drugs....But you know what im doing rite now....im writing this blog(part drunk and part stoned). ok!, i dont mean to be a self cribbing evil bastard,but someone has to stop.Instead i spent this day at rishi's place.Boozed a bit.Got stoned even more.I guess that was the best way i could have ended my year.Felt good!Felt real damn good.I guess every bad year should have an ending as sweet as this.:)
Ha!.And cause my 31st party got cancelled but it does every year,so that shouldnt bother me much too.Its been a really sucked up year.College finished...and leaving the SMIT hostel was one of the hardest things ive had to cope up with....and and...welll,i joined my new Infosys job and im supposed to be proud of it....and other non-mentionable things happened too.Bottomline yes!,the year sucked...probably a bit too much.But i met many old friends too...and found new ones...caught on with some of the really old friends with whom i had no contact till then.... and im happy for all of them...happy for the life they lead...for the way they are.... especially some of them....i envy them for they way they live....but im glad for them.... :)
I love rishi's joints and sniffing up some coke.At least they make me much more(thats 4 m's in one straight sequence :P) happy and un-fake.

oh!....4....3....2.....1.....

Say Ohaiye!!! Happy New Year!...
(yaa whatever!heehee!)

31st December,2006

Dear diary,

I dreamt about a girl today.Liked it.I never really wanted it to end.For once i want my dream to come true(sometime in my life!).Im confused.

Love XXX,

Debanuj

yet another year passes by.Too fast.Am i happy?Am i sad?Am i better off?Am i concerned?

People say .."..u should rite down ur objectives before the year starts ...."....and i switch on the TV...lay down on the bed and watch some old primetime movie.Thats how my year ends every year.People have a notion i party and club a lot.But you know what...No parties for me.Just the good old me and my sleep,like any other day.Now thats why people call me boring!

A long time back.......