The Inevitable!!!!

".....so u think u can tell...heaven from hell??...."
- Pink Floyd


well,its about time i wrote about the thing that matters in life the most....the inevtiable....it is
what that keeps us alive...we live for it...and we certainly stop living for this ultimate goal of our
existance.....so y is it that peopole fear death so much....its a process which we,humans,try to
avoid....which porbbly gives a kinda evil meaning to it....but y?..i believe its as sacred as our
birth...as holy as our marriage n as important as our existance itself......are we all concerned about our afterlife..or is it that we are concerned about our future generations that we actually forget about the only inevitable process in our life....well,i believe that we humans are nothin more than a frikkin huge n complex chemical reaction...which stops at the time of our death...this is a meaningless discussion..but its not what u guys think...this is what i think...i guess i had to pen it down someday...so now the question is..who's God...??..where's heaven or ..Hell??..where r these places....or is God just a manifestation of what we see as a result of an illusion...or when we are 'high'...due to intake of potentially 'hazardous' substances which might as well alter the nature of the chemical reaction inside us...n thus allowing us to
get a 'high'...thereby,being in 'heaven'.... n therefore believing in The Almighty.....sometimes i do
think is this the platform where religions were established....is this what the Pagans believed to be as God...is this religion....is this what people die for...to get re-united with God..when he actaully supposedly doesnt exist..... I can talk about this for hours...n you can
contradict me....n i can talk back again....but its not what we talk about...its all about the
Faith...Faith in one's self...Faith in what we believe....not what we presume....


I have always valued Friendship to the utmost importance...i have compromised a lot...probably im even ready to jeopardize my own family at the face of friendship..but some things need a repairing.....i have often been tainted in the name of friendship...i dunno why...ive tired, n tried..but sumhow with certain people it doesnt really work....i nevr wanted
to write this,neither do i know why im writing this....but i guess it needed to be written...for my
sake...if not the sake of others...cuz im tired...im tired of networkin which doesnt work out....its time i get up n show the finger.....

The Jack of cards and the Unseen Lady....

There are 2 things i dont know........

There's this card game called 29....i really
hated this game...i saw my friends play it
24X7.. but i really sucked...then addiction took
me over...i observed....n saw...n
understood....it was like this unspoken language
that cud be only comprehended by the masters of
the card game....well,the game went like
this....there was this JACK which had 3
points...the card no 9,2 points...while the ace
n 10 had a solo point each....with the ace hvin
the upper hand....now this is a team game...u
call the points....n if u fail to acheive those
points in the course of the game...ur team
loses..or else u guys win...n there r lotsa
other rules too....so comin back,i really HATED
this game in the beginning...but sumtime back i
heard a chinese proverb saying' if u cant beat
then,join them'....n thts exactly wht happend to
me....before i even came to know of it,i started
playin the game....played it over vodka...over
rum...over a couple of joints...over fags....n
definitely over my roommate's coffee....played
the game for weeks....n still i
sucked...sumtimes i even gave up the thought of
playing it...but then i nevr really let it go... Then i looked at the other side..n
realized,well,this is who i am...the game's
teachin me a lot....i understood human
psychologies....understood who cheated to win,n
who did not..the more observant ones..the
obstinate ones...and definitely the one who
thought himself to be the Jack of all trades.... Jack is a person whom we need in
life...he's the person whom people depend on...
he's not the master but behaves like one...able
to control evrything around him....they made a
nursery rhyme on him....they 'synonymed' his
name to a thing done by males...they made him a
psychopath killer....they named their children
after him....they put him on a flag n they loved
him when he sang...he was true to all socities
never really unfazed by what he did...he's
immortal n evergreen....he's what ive always
wanted to be....he's my alter ego...my
friend,philosopher and guide...but then...its
just tht 3 points which make him up......

There's this girl i hvnt met....she's as dark minded as i am....but then she's wht life is...she's what we all are...we do talk often a lot...a real fun girl to talk too...talks about things i normally wouldnt expect from a girl...after about a year,i have failed in my attempts to understand her....

360 degrees.....

"A circle is the set of points in a plane that are equidistant from a given point . The distance from the center is called the radius, and the point is called the center. Twice the radius is known as the diameter . The angle a circle subtends from its center is a full angle, equal to 360 or 2 pi-radians."

What is it to be a circle?........A moving dot traversing exactly 360 degrees..Having the exact same distance from the the centre point .....Why do we really consider it to be that important....Just because the whole universe is basically based on this 'very important' shape.Why not the square or a cube or as a matter of fact...the line.....???? and why is it that we did name the most important shape in sceintific history as the circle....if we look at it...a ball looks like a circle,yet is called a ball...the zero is a circle with nothing in it...n is yet called a zero..even though a circle too has nothin it it...except empty space and whiteness.A circle has the maximum possible area for a given perimeter, and the minimum possible perimeter for a given area....If the circle is instead cut into wedges, as the number of wedges increases to infinity, a rectangle results....So why this distinction...if we flip through our history books and consider the ancient history,we see that the circle was probably invented by the stone age people who tried to reason with life and ultimately failed in their attempt....therefore probably 'no work' had made them create such a crude but wonderful design which was to change the face of uhman existance in the next few million years.For them,the enjoyment in drawing a circle or rubbing 2 stones to create the eternal inferno was probably much more than a 5yr old taking a picture through a digicam today.So,coming back to our circle....does it really symbollize people who have no work...lookin at it..scientifically we would define work as the product of one unit of force and one unit of displacement....but a circle does show no displacement as our mysterious 'moving dot' comes back to the same place.....hence zero work....So whats the first thing that we picturise in our minds when we r asked to think of a circle........just a round shaped figure on a whitesheet of paper????......have we ever thought about this shape ...when we sleep, or when we dream or lets say when we are high???......have we ever thought that it is through these 360 degress that life actually transcends to an entirly different level...it is through this path of a moving dot that we inevitably realize who we actually are....have we ever noticed that when we are asked to think of something, a circle is the first thing that comes to our mind....or is it because we dont actually think of the circle and it is the mind that makes us think of the circle........


This is my first ever blog post.Ive been seriously thinkin of making one for some time now and now that its done,i guess i do have to put on my thinkin cap....my first blog site was the 360 degs page in yahoo n hence the name...or it just might be that ive finally found out what the circle in my life really means...infinte force and zero displacement.....!!!!!!!!

There's a passage I memorized

Ezekiel 25:17. "The pathof the righteous man is beset onall sides by the inequities of theselfish and the tyranny of evilmen. Blessed is he who, in thename of charity and good will,shepherds the weak through thevalley of darkness, for he is trulyhis brother's keeper and the finderof lost children. And I willstrike down upon thee with greatvengeance and furious anger thosewho attempt to poison and destroymy brothers. And you will know myname is the Lord when I lay myvengeance upon you."